The Choice

Moor House - After Jane Eyre discovered Rochester's prior marriage she chose to retain the virtues that make her admirable. She chose not to marry him and instead to leave. After she had left she is taken in by St. John and his siblings Diana and Mary.

It is here at the Moor House that Jane Eyre faces her most difficult hardship. Eyre decides she must get over Rochester and leave him in the past due to the fact that he is married. Even though Rochester regrets his marriage saying, "I married her:—gross, grovelling, mole-eyed blockhead that I was," Eyre cannot deny the fact that she would be Rochester's mistress. Eyre, valuing herself over her love, decides that she must get over him.

This becomes difficult when St. John asks her to instead marry him. Then Jane is stuck between two decisions marry St. John or hold out and wait for true love. Jane often dreams of Rochester and develops little to no feelings for Rochester. "Met Mr. Rochester, always at some exciting crisis; and then the sense of being in his arms, hearing his voice, meeting his eye, touching his hand and cheek, loving him," Jane wrote of her dreams.

Therein lies the complication. Not only does St. John ask to marry Jane but he implores her that she must also come to India with him at this Jane knows she cannot leave. "If I join St. John, I abandon half myself: if I go to India, I go to premature death," Jane Eyre wrote.

Eyre cannot bear to be so far away from Rochester or here new found home. She has just barely become comfortable with her life. To up and leave everything she knows behind would be to turn her back on everyone that had ever cared for her. "At that moment I knew I could not marry St. John, however I did not expect to go back to Rochester at anytime soon," Eyre said. 

As St. John persistenetly courts Jane Eyre, she feels a familiar presence. "It was as if he was reaching out for me. I could feel him indefinitely. Thats why I wrote of that: well-remembered voice—that of Edward Fairfax Rochester. His voice came to me and I knew he needed me. It was true love."

Jane Eyre stuck to her guns and to what she knew. She did not turn around and abandone herself or the way she felt about Rochester. When it was time to move on she knew that she could not and instead was drawn back to Thornfield. "I would say it was an act of god," Jane said. "However, looking back on it, I knew I just yearned to her his voice."

Jane Eyre's choices throughout the book have always paid of because she chose herself in every situation. She did not love St. John and chose to hold out. She taught, made friends, inherited her fortune and found herself. In this portion of her life Jane made a choice, however throughout her whole life she made decisions that solely lead her to a better life.